problems in our way

before i hear people talking about anxiety when i dont know what it is and how it feels for sure it sounds horrible but at that time i dealt with other horrible things in my life which is eating disorder and depression i thought that was tough enough but now at this moment i know what it is and for once im dealing with it and know how it feels it really wrecks your life not letting you live your life you wanted not fair at all its so scary though of the things it could do that you never experienced before im pyschic and felt people pain and heard there thoughts its dark my dreams show and tell me things i want and not to know and i have experienced the worst feeling before but anxiety in another level it showed me what it like to be blind your whole body is haywire n not functioning your temperture is like someone playing with aircorne remote it literally goes to freezing cold that you shiver so you put jumper on than you get so hot and sweat and you take the jumper off yeah that repeats non stop other thing all of sudden you cant balance so you cant walk or stand or youll fall your heart aches and feel heavy like someone putting pressure on it and it beats like you had speed or 20 energy drinks than you shake like your so cold which makes you weak and clumpsy and jumpy you might feel so sick and puke non stop or you would faint but most annoying thing is being blinded yes anxiety can make you blind for while your sight can be in and out of focus or blury all time or blinded all you can see is pitch black and you get numb your senses get out of control you cant hear things clearly everything seems your in nightmare or dream or in slow motion it doesnt make anything seem real you cant even speak your speechless and its so hard to move breathe or speak its like my mouth being sewed shut n if you did speak your trembling or stuttering and it does come in worst times like courses jobs social events and we all dont want to be frozen dont we its just fear phobias and thoughts of whats going to happen if i do this or say this we always have that wall and it feels so good to smash threw it once but most of the times it suuucckks sometimes it feels like someone pushing me down on bed and im stuck i cant get up what im saying anxiety is one of our demons we need to battle and really need to get rid of it to make our life contuning living and to complete the puzzle your not alone and i know you all feel just like headspace says anxiety is normal we all have it you cant get rid of it you just need to control it and its ok to cry take day by day and step at time you never know if tomorrow the day youll be ok xo