new beginnings

to all my fans readers and viewers and all in one i got some sad bad news for you all as you know im full time non stop gamer that loves gta minecraft and sims i been playing playstation through generations and years from ps1 to ps4 and never in my life thought this would ever happen so one day i played gta and my hand and wrist made loud snap noise which lead me to have strain and tenderitist biggest gamer fear and enemy my hand and wrist was aching and all my fingers on both hands were swollen and aching and in one stage went numb which means cant do anything with both hands for atleast 3 months so i wont be playing any ps4 games for long time doctor said the controller killed it cuz joystick has so much movement now ill be having splint bandage on both hands and hopefully anti flementry tablets will solve problem or itll be needle this lead me to misery please wish me luck for this my pepz i will find a way around this and be so cautious this time xo Show some love to my page and s...

before i hear people talking about anxiety when i dont know what it is and how it feels for sure it sounds horrible but at that time i dealt with other horrible things in my life which is eating disorder and depression i thought that was tough enough but now at this moment i know what it is and for once im dealing with it and know how it feels it really wrecks your life not letting you live your life you wanted not fair at all its so scary though of the things it could do that you never experienced before im pyschic and felt people pain and heard there thoughts its dark my dreams show and tell me things i want and not to know and i have experienced the worst feeling before but anxiety in another level it showed me what it like to be blind your whole body is haywire n not functioning your temperture is like someone playing with aircorne remote it literally goes to freezing cold that you shiver so you put jumper on than you get so hot and sweat and you take the jumper off yeah that repea...